the observatory

1. ......we just need to be truthful and honest to oneself, people come and go.I believe i have nothing except to offer the very best of my capability, talent, honesty, blood, sweat and tears. 2.......i believe that i LOVED all the people the best as i could. People come and go. I believed that all of us are not perfect and we strive to be. But it's not meant for us to be together. I still love and care for you. Trust me. Its hard and requires me some time to find courage and strength to forgive myself and you. 3. Everything happened is meant to be the best and beneficial for the majority, not to oneself. I can only afford to plan and execute, but the result is entirely up to the universe's will. 4. My life is too short, i just hope and pray that all my actions, work, knowledge and effort benefit for the majority. Each to its own accordance. No more and no less. 5. Im tired of people asking me why im still single, i believe that the universe stored me with tons of sur...

Im resting this weekend, cant believe that its already February, time flies very fast. Im aware that i spend nearly 2 months going up and down to the east coast helping out the flood victims. Its nice to sense that Kota Bharu is filled with optimism and the air of renewal. The recovery process for the flood victims easily will take 4 - 6months. So we can only offer what we can do. Yes also i hope Tok Guru will recover too. Its time for us to realize that our life is can be short, fleeting and temporal. Its strange that people need natural disasters, death and tragedy to make us realize this. Lets try go beyond FORM shall we, get away from all those material needs and attachments that tie us down. For 2 solid months, i experienced honest laughter, tears,hugs, encouragement and gratitude, plus the Universe grant me to view her masterpieces which is clear open skies filled with stars, the beautiful moon and the sun. Man.....i felt blessed. Truly. In my heart, i really app...

Nothing warms you up when you have thoughtful words like these. Thank you Alpha Hotel - from Alpha Eagle.

I have to document this - of all the humanitarian missions ive been involved, this is kinda personal. Kinda personal as it involved one of my pal Jeff which he got trapped in the flood together with his wife Nusrat and their 2 adorable monsters in Badang, Kota Bharu, Kelantan for the last 2 weeks in December 2014. ( Nawal and Umar - my god both of them are so freaking adorable ). Jeff guarded by 2 angels - Nawal and Umar Nusrat, Nawal, Jeff and Umar Jeff as usual, with his investigative reportage habits, took pictures of the water level hourly updates in Facebook, finally on the 26th December, we were cut off. I tried to call him but failed. Shit. And I was away to Ulu Kemaman, Terengganu for the first mission. I was worried shit, Kelantan was off limits. Together with another 23 people - they took shelter under Cikgu Zahari's place, his house turned to an ad hoc flood centre. Total darkness, where the electricity and water supply were cut off, by the fourth day - t...

we just need to do good to others so others can do good to others.

been occupied with the flood conflicts in the country. I will get back to you soon Heisenberg. Intend to a series of Walter White from Breaking Bad. Too awesome to forget.

Most of the time, i will either involved directly or indirectly in rescue missions or giving some sort of aid. Ive been regularly donated blood annually - 4 times to be specific. I dont know - i dont expect anything, i just give and give and give.2014 gave me a space to reflect on alot of things and stuffs. I realized that our heart is the one that speaks to us - it will react accordingly and most of the time, it wont lie, the greatest nemesis is our mind. Our mind actually loves to justify and predict the end results. After all the years dealing and managing selfish people, i decided i had enough. True enough, 2014 gave me a space where i have to dig really deep inside and test my limits on giving. On how much i able and afford to give. I realized that money is not everything, true, we need money to buy something, having monetary and accumulating materials is simply an useless act. December 2014 called me out and i dont think twice jumping into Hanafi's 4x4 team, join the re...